I love. (sigh) Yes, I love my life. The joy I have felt recently is just as strong as the pang of grief. (sigh) The paradox of life. Life and death. Love and hate. Joy and sorrow. Complete and empty. Beginning and end.
I miss Marilyn and also revel in the discovery of so much love — all together in one life, in one heart. The intensity of brilliant bliss and new beginnings with Paul, yet also a blaring black void of where my sister once was and is no more. Life is lovely and yet so lacking as well. I love yet still … life and all it’s tricks slice through — and yet, sweetly there is still love. I smile quietly, and she would like to see me smile.
Thank you God.
1 response so far ↓
iwantgrits // June 6, 2008 at 6:43 pm
Hello!! It looks like you’ve neglected your blog as much as I have mine! I’m going to try and start it back up again… a couple of posts a week maybe. Hope all is well!!
–your friendly neighborhood Ox